So here's the dilemma. . .I love the apartment that I'm in right now. It has ample storage in every single room (if only you could see my closet!), it has a great layout, and is quite large. Now that I'm downsizing I'm realizing how much I'm going to miss my apartment. I won't miss the actual apt complex (really bad parking, NO amenities except for a dinky pool, not to mention the not so friendly staff). If I decide to stay here in this complex b/c I've decided that my apt is just that great, then that means one HUGE problem: Baxter will be out of the family. I obviously can't have Baxter here anymore since he's over the weight limit and I already got in trouble once, which is why he's in OK with my parents. And also, if I decide that I can't take him back, then mom and dad can't keep him either. It's just too much for them since they already have another dog (which used to be my brother's; they somehow keep inheriting pets).
And what's to say that when I do bring him back he'll hate it here, even if I take him to the dog park every single day? I just don't know what to do. I love him and miss him so much and would like to think that he thinks the same of me enough to go back to apartment living. But I just don't know.
I've looked at apartments that are ok; I've looked at apartments that have absolutely incredible amenities (i.e. DOG PARK, movie theater, fitness rooms, pool, etc) but the apt wasn't ideal. I'm trying to come to terms with living in a smaller space if I want to save money AND have Baxter. Somehow, I just can't get a bigger apt for the same amount that I'd pay here for a one bedroom, but also take large dogs.
Seriously. . .does it really have to be this difficult?
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Only Enough Energy for an Update Post
Things are still going great. But, I've spent the day helping Laura paint and I'm majorly tired. However I realize I haven't posted in a while and figured I should update my readers. So, here's a snapshot:
1. Things with Jonathan keep getting better everyday. I learn new things that I find so interesting and great, which makes me feel blessed over and over to have met him.
2. The job is going great. I love the doctors I work for. Dr. Connor even took us to lunch at Houlihan's for Secretary's Day! How awesome is that?!
3. I watched Dr. Connor perform a bilateral mastectomy with a sentinal node injection. I met with the patient from almost the very beginning to let her know that I would be there, and she actually seemed quite comforted by it. I only got lightheaded once! It wasn't even at a point where I saw anything happening, it was just the fact that I was in a small room with a lot of people and it was really really hot, plus I had layers on. So, I immediately had to leave and sit down before I fainted. While in the OR, Dr. Connor did let me come see the breast of the patient after all of the breast tissue was gone to show me what it looked like and what exactly she had to do. It was an experience I will never forget!
4. The latest I have had to work on a Friday is 1:45pm, so I am LOVING the 2 1/2 day weekends!
5. The roommate situation with my friend from Stein Mart is not going to work out after all, unfortunately, and it makes me very sad. But, what I've realized is that rooming with someone whom you were already friends with really probably isn't the best situation, even if it does sound great. Being roommates is such a different dynamic that is revolved around BILLS and friends should not have to put themselves in that awkward situation. So, it's back to the drawing board on where my next place of residence will be. All I know, is that I can't wait for my parents to get here to help me with the process!
6. I'm realizing more and more how little I need. In the almost 4 months since I was let go from Stein Mart I have indulged in very, very little shopping for myself. I believe I have bought one DVD, the 4th season of LOST of course, and only one book, a Jodi Picoult book of course. Now, mom did indulge me a little bit when I went home last time, where I came home with 3 shirts for only $20, the 1st season of The Tudors, and a haircut. All wonderful choices to feed my shopping hunger. Thank you, Mom! But other than that, I just am not shopping at all, and I really don't miss it. I guess every time I think about shopping, I think about rent instead, or my car payment, or just plainly, my future. My future house that will have to have a down payment, upgrading my furniture, etc etc. So, I guess what I'm saying is, having left Stein Mart and taking a cut in pay has probably been the best answer to getting me to really hunker down and stick to the necessities in life.
1. Things with Jonathan keep getting better everyday. I learn new things that I find so interesting and great, which makes me feel blessed over and over to have met him.
2. The job is going great. I love the doctors I work for. Dr. Connor even took us to lunch at Houlihan's for Secretary's Day! How awesome is that?!
3. I watched Dr. Connor perform a bilateral mastectomy with a sentinal node injection. I met with the patient from almost the very beginning to let her know that I would be there, and she actually seemed quite comforted by it. I only got lightheaded once! It wasn't even at a point where I saw anything happening, it was just the fact that I was in a small room with a lot of people and it was really really hot, plus I had layers on. So, I immediately had to leave and sit down before I fainted. While in the OR, Dr. Connor did let me come see the breast of the patient after all of the breast tissue was gone to show me what it looked like and what exactly she had to do. It was an experience I will never forget!
4. The latest I have had to work on a Friday is 1:45pm, so I am LOVING the 2 1/2 day weekends!
5. The roommate situation with my friend from Stein Mart is not going to work out after all, unfortunately, and it makes me very sad. But, what I've realized is that rooming with someone whom you were already friends with really probably isn't the best situation, even if it does sound great. Being roommates is such a different dynamic that is revolved around BILLS and friends should not have to put themselves in that awkward situation. So, it's back to the drawing board on where my next place of residence will be. All I know, is that I can't wait for my parents to get here to help me with the process!
6. I'm realizing more and more how little I need. In the almost 4 months since I was let go from Stein Mart I have indulged in very, very little shopping for myself. I believe I have bought one DVD, the 4th season of LOST of course, and only one book, a Jodi Picoult book of course. Now, mom did indulge me a little bit when I went home last time, where I came home with 3 shirts for only $20, the 1st season of The Tudors, and a haircut. All wonderful choices to feed my shopping hunger. Thank you, Mom! But other than that, I just am not shopping at all, and I really don't miss it. I guess every time I think about shopping, I think about rent instead, or my car payment, or just plainly, my future. My future house that will have to have a down payment, upgrading my furniture, etc etc. So, I guess what I'm saying is, having left Stein Mart and taking a cut in pay has probably been the best answer to getting me to really hunker down and stick to the necessities in life.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
As It Should Be
Sleeping in 'til 11, aahhh. . .haven't done that in a while. Spending an entire day to myself and not turning on the tv until 8:30pm, haven't done that in a while either. Cleaning from 12-5, from the toilets to the bathtubs, from mopping every floor that can be mopped to dusting the tv. . .haven't done that much cleaning in a while. Cooking. . . . . . . . . . .well, that's just something I don't do. Ever.
Jonathan asked yesterday if I'd want to make spaghetti with him tonight and I said that sounds great. Basically, with the thought that he'd do most of it and I'd clean up afterwards. Sounds fair to me. Well, when he called to say he was running late from work and still had to go home and change and what not, I decided that I would go to the store myself instead of waiting on him. I got home with all of the goods and realized that it sure would be nice of me to just cook the meal, all by myself, for him. I also realize this was a good idea when I get a voicemail from him stating that he was leaving my apartment as he realized when he got here that he had forgotten his cell phone charger for his phone that was already on the verge of dying.
And I assure you, while it wasn't the hardest of recipes, it did involve a little more than throwing a jar of spaghetti sauce on top of some cooked noodles. When Jonathan finally arrived I had a nice vegetable medley stewing on the stove, the noodles coming to a nice boil, and french bread heating in the oven. He did proceed to make the salad from the fresh romaine lettuce I bought rather than the prepackaged kind we tend to buy, saying he couldn't just stand by and let me do everything.
And when he took his first bite he said it was perfect. It's not that I can't cook I've learned, it's just that I've tried for so long to not have to. But having someone as great as Jonathan to enjoy these meals with, he actually makes me want to cook and have this to do together. I actually really did enjoy myself tonight, something that's pretty much never occurred when I've tried cooking before.
Jonathan asked yesterday if I'd want to make spaghetti with him tonight and I said that sounds great. Basically, with the thought that he'd do most of it and I'd clean up afterwards. Sounds fair to me. Well, when he called to say he was running late from work and still had to go home and change and what not, I decided that I would go to the store myself instead of waiting on him. I got home with all of the goods and realized that it sure would be nice of me to just cook the meal, all by myself, for him. I also realize this was a good idea when I get a voicemail from him stating that he was leaving my apartment as he realized when he got here that he had forgotten his cell phone charger for his phone that was already on the verge of dying.
And I assure you, while it wasn't the hardest of recipes, it did involve a little more than throwing a jar of spaghetti sauce on top of some cooked noodles. When Jonathan finally arrived I had a nice vegetable medley stewing on the stove, the noodles coming to a nice boil, and french bread heating in the oven. He did proceed to make the salad from the fresh romaine lettuce I bought rather than the prepackaged kind we tend to buy, saying he couldn't just stand by and let me do everything.
And when he took his first bite he said it was perfect. It's not that I can't cook I've learned, it's just that I've tried for so long to not have to. But having someone as great as Jonathan to enjoy these meals with, he actually makes me want to cook and have this to do together. I actually really did enjoy myself tonight, something that's pretty much never occurred when I've tried cooking before.
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